A toxic relationship... I think we're both toxic to each other. I think we both realize it too, but…

A toxic relationship... I think we're both toxic to each other. I think we both realize it too, but neither of us does anything about it. He won't end it either out of love or too stubborn. I know he wants this to work out. I haven't because I want him in his sons life and he barely is. He thinks that busting his ass at work is enough, but really that's only half of it. Working isn't parenting and he doesn't get that, I guess. Even when I point this out to him, I'm the one incessantly nagging him or guilt tripping him in someway. I guess my expectations for him as a father are too high? I mean, damn... I'm sorry I want you to take more initiative in your son's life and actually take part in raising him. I'm tired of being the only parent... I have no support or help at home. The most support I've had from the beginning was and still is from my parents, but they aren't always here either. I don't expect them to be, they have their own lives, but I wish I had at least one constant, solid, support person to go to.