Excuses not to go to bed

Per my 4 year old:

My sweet baby girl gained her angel wings this morning. She was my best friend, my true love my everything. She was so happy and beautiful, I'm struggling to say good bye. Sleep tight princess, mummy and daddy love you very very much ❤️

Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

Woke up outta my sleep in crazy pain and to my 4 year old all under me and to my husband saying is Loyal here yet I'm getting nervous cause that man have always been head on to when his kids coming out an playing the game and guess what that's what's going on now I'm ready for baby boy but then again I am not. My 4 year old is literally walking every where I walk talking about I'ma stay with you mama even when I go to the br I'm starting to feel sick to my stomach......

I went to bed with a 3 year old and woke up with a 4 year old. I cannot even believe my baby is 4 years old already. This amazing little girl has so much personality and is so sweet and caring. I am so blessed and happy to be her mommy.