So I found one midwife that does home births in my area. Only thing is, I contacted her back in…

So I found one midwife that does home births in my area. Only thing is, I contacted her back in November when I found out I was pregnant. Due to the holidays she was going out of town till after the new year and was supposed to contact me upon her return. Well, I never heard from her and seeing how she is my only option for a home birth, I reached out to her again today. Now she wants to meet March 13 and I'm just not sure what to do. I desperately want a home birth. However, I need someone I know I can rely on especially during a home birth and I'm just not too sure I can rely on this midwife. Idk what to do!