I'm having a very rough day today. I have "friends" but none of them will hang out with me unless there's no-one else they can possibly hang out with first. I'm just going to say this, I'm awesome to be around, I would give the shirt off my back to these people but yet I can't even get them to spend five bleeping minutes with me. Then my husband was supposed to get a ride home from a coworker today but she called out knowing at 5pm they had a meeting at work to be at. He's supposed to be off at 5. So he did t get on the bus until 6:15pm meaning he most likely won't get home until 8:15pm. He leaves everyday at 5am. This crap is getting a bit ridiculous. Then he called me on his lunch and decided to be a total complete as#hole. I hung up on him and honestly I just want to be nonexistent right now. I don't want to talk to anyone and I even deactivated my facebook. I'm totally sick of having people but then no-one ever being there for me. I hate my life SOOOOOOOO BAD right now. I've even debated talking to my psych doc about going back on meds during this pregnancy, but am honestly scared to do that.