Thanks so much I appreciate that so much

There is a crisis hotline specifically for postpartum depression if you needed it 1-800-PPD-MOMS

I am so afraid to add medication to anything especially with breastfeeding I just kind of am hoping to talk through it as much as possible. I just feel so overwhelmed and everyone says oh I'll help you then when it comes down to it. Surprise they don't

Deep breaths and hang in there. Talk to your doctor when you feel ready!