I'm so lonely. I have one friend that is more like as mom friend but she always works and if not…

I'm so lonely. I have one friend that is more like as mom friend but she always works and if not then she she taking care of her family and extended family. My husband is here but he thinks that when I express my feelings about our relationship that I want to start an argument. But it's not like that. I have all my feeling bottled up and I always cry like crazy. I don't know what to do. I see a million Dr's because I have a million problems with me. I'm disabled and I'm only 29 became disabled at 25 unfortunately.