I never thought I'd be the mom constantly thinking of taking her own life after childbirth. I always thought "no that…

I feel the same at times! If you are ever in need of mom talk! You can message me

Text me 3234810224 where do you live?

I hope u get to feeling better mama

I feel the same way

You are not the only one feeling that way! Get help asap counseling helps ❤

@smash6684 thank you ❤ Nope... I literally have nobody unfortunately. 😕 the only relatives I'm close to is across the country. I'm going to a counselor right now but it's really not helping much. I'll be fine the day after I see her, but then the rest of the week I'm back to normal. 😕

@mumstasin No, I haven't. I don't want to because I have a history of depression and the first thing they're going to try to do is put me on medicine which I don't want. 😕 I'm not sure if it's ppd but it seems like it. I have anxiety literally 24/7, insane bits of rage, and self harm/suicide thoughts. I'm not sure if it's just hormones or ppd though and I don't want to ask my doc because of that. 😕

Do things that distract you. Go on walks! I promise you it'll help clear your mind. Find a hobby if you don't already have one. Go on dates with your husband on the weekends without baby. Or even do your makeup and hair! I was battling with the same things you did. It's still a struggle for me to this day. I live with my in laws, so I easily get depressed. I'm constantly thinking I'm just a statistic of a young mom that won't ever go to college. But I will go to college and I will do the things I want. In due time.

Have you spoke to the doctor about this? Your probably going through PPD. It's normal to have thoughts all over the place after birth. Hormones are all crazy and they don't adjust quickly. I still cry over "sad" commercials. Or happy moments on tv.