I guess I just need a safe place to vent..
My husband is the sole provider of the house. He literally I'd the most disrespectful soul I've ever come across... which isn't who I married and it kills me, everyday. He doesn't rub my baby bump, send sweet messages, play with my hair, tub my back... instead he gets angry if I ask when to expect him home.
Tells me not to bother him while he's busy (including him not being at work) and overall tries making himself look way better than me. It's extremely hurtful.. he's cheated once already and he's shitty if I bring it up or don't trust him.. as if I should forget. He treats me like shit when he has a bad day, but I can't even talk to him about my day if there's the slightest negativity in it no matter HOW I SAY IT.
I HAVE NO ONE. He's supposed to be my safe place, I consider a shelter frequently but I've got a three year old...
Not only that but him as the sole provider, her birthday is going to be terrible again this year and that's the worst part... last year she didn't get any gifts. 😢 And this year he's already shrugging off and making excuses for her party.
I can't work because his hours are so sporadic and he uses my car for work.. I feel trapped and it's terrible.
Thanks for reading if you stuck through.