3 more days till my planned c-section and I'm so nervous about the epi and spinal how will I handle two babies my living situation its just so overwhelming and the fact that I'm not with their father really sucks he hurt me so bad but he is working on himself don't know if I can trust him again I need him to be here for our babies I hope this year will be my time to rise above and get my life on track I'm so not where I wanna to be and my kids will the reason I come out on top