So the other night my husband had a dream I cheated on him, he thought it was real and woke up upset…

So the other night my husband had a dream I cheated on him, he thought it was real and woke up upset and so he went outside to smoke, came back told me his dream than told me to look at him and tell him that I wouldn't cheat on him. Which I told him I wouldn't and I'm not, he says he don't want to lose me and for another man to raise his baby, a couple months back I've asked him has he very thought about cheating on me and he said yes but he's not going to because he would not want me to do that to him. I have trust issues as it is and that's why I'm always questioning him. He's a good guy he is but well it's just too much to type. But I told him when you've been hurt it's hard to trust someone... but when you do things that question my trust it drives me insane and now I'm to the point of just focusing on me my baby and school and looking for a job because one of us needs a job. I hate depending on family and friends. This year is going to be better than last with or without the help of anyone. I hope my husband sees that I do love him but he needs to do what he needs to do for this family. That I will stop questioning him if he stops giving me reasons to question him. I'm putting everything in Gods hands!