I swear every time my ex leaves from seeing the baby, I get all fricking caught up in my damn…

I swear every time my ex leaves from seeing the baby, I get all fricking caught up in my damn feelings 😔 we get along really well for the most part when he's not acting like a idiot. And when we're together it's clear as day theirs chemistry and something there. I wish so many things were different and didn't end up how they are and he wasn't the way he is but oh well it is what it is. It would be so much easier to cut all ties but that won't ever happen, and I'm always just stuck feeling a certain way 😕