Wondering if I'm really a good mom my baby cries with me all the time.. Nothing I do really consoles…

Wondering if I'm really a good mom my baby cries with me all the time.. Nothing I do really consoles him as fast as his dad or my mom. I'm a ftm no experience with kids, am I too hard on myself?? I also get jealous that he does so good with my fiancé.. I get mad.. I feel I'm losing it, am I crazy?