I just really feel like commiting suicide. my child's father has done nothing but the worst to me…

listen im here for you. you probably have post partum depression mixed with depression from all the things going on. your baby need you, and all you need is your baby. the love you have for her is enough to forget about that douchebag. baby always comes first but momma needs some time to herself sometimes too . go out and enjoy yourself. guys suck sometimes its not always your fault, some people wont ever realize what they have. thats where he is wrong, now dont make the same mistake as him and look into your babies eyes and realize she is all you need. you are strong and you are amazing . you CAN do this. you WILL do this. ive seen so many good people ruined by depression because they think nothing will ever get better. i myself have depression and i have learned to cope over the years without meds or counceling. trust in me. message me please if you need ANYTHING. i will talk for hours about whats bothering you and help you through this. or we can talk about absolutely anything to get your mind off. life is never easy, but i promise , its always doable.

Not only will your daughter care, but she will suffer for the rest of her life. It's not a matter of her simply caring, but her life literally depends on yours. If you die, she has nothing, nobody, no mom, nothing. Relationships are important but your daughter will give you more than enough love to make up for what a shit excuse her father is. The more you let his actions get to you, the more you let him take away your life. You need to move forward and push through. Your baby girl depends on you. I'm sorry you child's dad is so awful but don't use a permanent resolution to a temporary problem. If you could only see your life in one year, 5 years, even 10 years, you'd know that things get better and that taking your life would only make things worse. things will turn out for you- I PROMISE. you need to get this toxic man out of your life and start fresh. Please get help sweety, there's so much to live for. The joy he could bring you is only a decimal of the joy your daughter can bring.

I agree with @badiam you need to stay strong because your daughter needs you and she will suffer so much without you! leave that man, your daughter comes first before anyone!

If you need help please feel free to message me, I dealt with chronic depression and suicide attempts as a child. I am living proof that life gets better and you CAN start over and remove toxic people from your life and fill your life with people who love you. I would never have my wonderful husband, baby boy, or unending happiness that I feel now had I not got up and decided enough was enough, life was too short to hate it.

@mommabear.j @sarahbelle thanks for the support. I've attempted before ... this is very toxic it was toxic before we even had a child together. everyone told me it will get better as time went by but I'm still the same I took counciling and even was on depression medication before I got pregnant. it's 100% worse he hurts me and I don't know how much more I can take I feel like I can't give my daughter all the love I can give her with him in my life.... but then he talk about court if I want to go away permanently I feel as if I keep in contact my daughter is going to loose her mom. I can't take it.... I love my daughter so much and I don't want to keep living like this. I think she deserves better and so do I... I just can't exit him out.

@tiannad426

you two do deserve the best and more ❤!! if you tried everything to make this relationship work then it's time to walk away, it's draining you so much and it sounds like you're just beating a dead horse. listen to this https://youtu.be/Pketb6gxR3w even if you don't believe in God I feel like this can give you some inspiration to leave! stay strong momma

You've got to stay strong for that baby girl ! Stay strong and focused on her and you and doing better for yahl and before you know it you'll forget about all the hatred you had towards him ! Time heals all love . Keep pushing !