Unaware if I've had a miscarriage, also could be pregnant again. Hello I'm Molly, My story is a little complex however…

Unaware if I've had a miscarriage, also could be pregnant again.

Hello I'm Molly,

My story is a little complex however I'm really struggling being alone in this situation and need help. I did resort to yahoo answers for questions and advice however I was completely ridiculed and it upset me a lot.

I cannot comprehend the emotions if I went through a miscarriage however not knowing is also extremely effecting me too.

this also happened late summer time, so unfortunately I will never be able to prove if I had or not.

I was taking the combined pill, however on occasion I did miss it, and I had experienced a couple of pregnancy scares.

I started to experience obvious pregnancy symptoms, and like most women say, when they're pregnant they just know, and this is also something that I felt. I couldn't deny certain symptoms either because my body had made quite obvious changes. My breasts became very very tender and sore, they also increased drastically, and my nipples became very dark and a lot bigger, I became extremely nauseous, however I was never sick, this continued throughout the days but mostly morning and evening. I experienced tummy aches, and certain cravings for certain types of foods. I also became a lot more sleepy, and well I just knew something was extremely different.

My periods have always been extremely light, and I have never experienced extreme pain when having a period, maybe slight discomfort. They also don't last long.

I decided to go of my combined pill, to wait for my period, usually after stopping the pill I would get my period probably two days after. This time I didn't, it was probably 2 weeks,

And it was something I'd never experienced before, the blood was non stop, I didn't stop bleeding, and I experienced black blood clots and something that looked like the lining of my womb, I was in extreme pain and struggled to even breathe. I also couldn't move and laid in bed. This continued on for about 3 weeks.

At the time I was confused but I suppose I put myself in denial, I had no knowledge on what a miscarriage feels or looks like, I always presumed it just wouldn't happen.

This then takes us back to the now present situation I am in. I never mentioned to anyone about the miscarriage because I wasn't certain and it's very personal however,

My now ex partner recently broke up with me, I'm extremely heart broken but what is making it even worse is, I'm extremely concerned I am pregnant. I have told him and he is aware, we've made regular check ups to my local clinic however because it is so early in, pregnancy signs are highly unlikely.

I was always unaware I could get pregnant not because of me being on contraception, but because I have certain medical issues, one including pcos. So I've been doing a lot of research, and then became aware that I may of had a miscarriage, meaning wow, I am capable of conceiving, for what I thought was an extremely mature thing to do, was to tell my ex partner. I presumed it was the right thing to do, so we don't become in denial about me being pregnant, so I told him I may of previously had a miscarriage. However me telling him this, turned into a personal attack. I've always been very private but also extremely truthful, so for me to tell him this and then be attacked verbally hurt. He said I was mental and crazy for even thinking that. And that I need help for even presuming I had one. It's made me feel even more alone.

I have no knowledge on how to deal with this situation, I'm on my own and I have nobody to talk to. Please help me, thank you so much for reading

I hope everybody is having a lovely day. Xx