When you're truly home alone for the first time ever since your baby was born because baby just went to her other grandma's for the day with her dad since I have to go to work at 3, and nobody else is home 😢😔 I don't like this lol I don't know what to do with myself and looking at my baby girl's stuff is making me miss her so much even though she's coming back this evening

It's been 3 months since my baby gained her wings. I don't even know how I have managed to carry on without for so long, I'm completely broken.
my baby daddy's ex wife works at the hospital I'm having my daughter she is just a cleaning lady she tell me they let her move the babies around I'm scared this women will take my baby she even tells me if I have my baby early she could see her ever day .. my doctor only delivers at this hospital I don't know what to do . this is why I don't want to have my baby early ..
I don't care what ppl think of me, but I'm seriously considering putting my baby up for adoption. I love her with all of heart, but doing this alone is hard. Every single night she just screams to the top of her lungs and I do everything to soothe her. I don't know what to do at all. I wish I had some kind of help. I don't have a single ounce of help. I don't know a single soul in Minnesota either.
My sister in-law is 13 weeks pregnant but they can not find a heart beat for the baby. She has no sign of a miscarriage, not even cramps. The Dr. Is pushing her to take some meds to help her pass the baby. This was her 1st ultrasound even. She is 38 hoping for her 1st baby. I'm telling her to wait and don't take anything. What do u guys think ?
So idk if I’m an asshole for thinking this but a girl I used to go to school with is having her 3rd kid and she’s planning a baby shower and she had one with her other two. I feel like a baby shower is something you do with ur first pregnancy. I live far from my family so I didn’t have one but i did have a baby registry and I’m not even doing that with this pregnancy. Idk I just feel like 3 baby showers is a lot! Especially when she gets things handed to her. Idk maybe I’m an ass for thinking that
@mommy_faith, lol I really should seeing as when she's here I have to schedule when I play my music at all, I even thought about going to my job early and shopping for myself again finally for a change, there's so many possibilities of what I can do right now lol