idk sometimes... sometimes my bf makes me feel like he doesn't fully love me as he says he does. and I'm starting to…

idk sometimes... sometimes my bf makes me feel like he doesn't fully love me as he says he does. and I'm starting to resent him for it. after 5 years this man can't seem to make up his mind about anything and I'm starting to hate this. idk sometimes I wish he would have broken up with me when we were younger. but then I remember he has given me such a beautiful son. idk what to do anymore.