I've struggled with depression for years, but finding out about Marlie I've tried to do better.…

I've struggled with depression for years, but finding out about Marlie I've tried to do better. Everything that's happened this week though has been too much and I don't know what to do anymore. Normally I chalk it up to god testing me and he wouldn't give me anything more than I can bare but idk wtf this is supposed to be. I just want to find peace somewhere