Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

So my bf just beat the hell out of my dog and idk what to do now. I want to leave but don't have my paper yet to take my dog with me anywhere I go

I WANT MY BABY ! 😡 takes 40 weeks??? Seriously though!!! 😩😫 new date given so now I'm 36w2d

My stomach is sooo heavy at this point I’m ready for these 4 weeks to fly by !! Idk why my stomach be so huge for my kids to come weighing 5/6 pounds at 39 weeks they be so tiny compared to most the babies in the nursery !!! Maybe I carry a lot of water idk but it makes no sense and I guarantee when I go for my sono next week when I turn 36 weeks they gone say she’s only 4 pounds right now !!!

I'm so irritated right now😣 so my MIL is on my WIC and they were going grocery shopping and I asked her to hwt me stuff on the list for my 3 day diet before my GD test. well they come back and everything bought was for her daughter like serious. I was putting it away and she kept saying that's for my lunch so don't eat it now I feel like I'm gonna fail my test Thursday