whenever I get home from work (lately around 10:30 or 11pm) I just go in my baby's room and sit next…

whenever I get home from work (lately around 10:30 or 11pm) I just go in my baby's room and sit next to his crib and watch him sleep. I miss him so much it hurts. I'm starting to question if I can really do this, but if I don't then I'll never progress and be self sufficient, which is my goal. By the time he's 1 I want to be financially stable and not have to rely on child support or CCDF or any of that stuff. but for now it's really hard to only see him early in the morning. 😞😞😔