I don't know if anyone will actually be awake right now, but here's my situation... My OH is disabled and I am his full time carer, he has 3 or 4 slipped/herniated discs that are pushing into his spinal cord, he also has leaking spinal fluid and about 60-70% loss of feeling in both legs. He can still walk around for now but he's always in a lot of pain and he's always on morphine.... Here's my problem, when I fell pregnant, he had the slipped discs but the problem was no when near as bad, he has deteriorated dramatically since I first fell pregnant and now he really struggles to do anything with Daisy but I feel like he has given up trying... Some days it's a struggle to get him to even hold her! He can only handle her if she's asleep or really calm which isn't even related to his disability... Yesterday I was saying how tired I am and I said "all I want is to go lay down for half an hour" and he didn't even respond :( I'm looking after Daisy all by myself... Sometimes he will entertain her but the second she starts crying I have to take over... He hasn't fed or changed her since she was tiny! I just wish things were different and we could be a much more equal parenting team :( I'm sorry for the long post... I just never really get to express how I feel about all this :/