😭😭😢 feeling like a crappy mom. Baby girl fell off the couch. I was literally right next to her and I was getting wipes out of the diaper bag. She's okay but I'm not 😰

I will be 41 :/
Short Luteal Phase?
I've just started temping because I believe that the reason I haven't had a BFP yet, after 20 months, is because I believe I may have a Luteal Phase Defect.
i need a baby name i love 😭😭😭😭
I just hate the way I been feeling and the thoughts that have been running through my head 😭😭😭😭😭
Okay ladies so I can no longer drink Coffee or Soda🥤💔😔 I need a moment of silence 😭😭😭 I’m hurt lol