My best friend has her twins last night at 29weeks...her like myself have been through many losses…

My best friend has her twins last night at 29weeks...her like myself have been through many losses and years of ttc.. She has been there for me through my losses and cried with me through my pain.. When she found out she was finally pregnant I was the first to know and she was the first to know when I found out.. I'm 15weeks 😞 I love her children like they were my own! Even though we have been friends for years we have never met in person.. My heart breaks that she has to go through this.. Little ones are alive but in the Nicu.. I have a gender scan today and I want to put on a happy face but I've been crying since she told me they were born 😞 my heart hurts for her.. She is the best mother I know 😞