i miss the old christmas...building a gingerbread house with extra everything..going oit to see the…

i miss the old christmas...building a gingerbread house with extra everything..going oit to see the lights.. the warm feeling of giving charity santa money..preparing raindeer food..endless christmas movies..eating candy canes way before and way past christmas..making our own special tree ornament each..the star on top of the tree..and the handmade hot chocolate that had to be made with the wooden spoon with the wooden rings tgat you twist really fast amd make it foamy so its supper good....but i havent had a christmas like that in years ..like 10 years... maybe i can have one like that with my family and my kids can have those memories..my boys are gonna have nice memories..i promise that..everyday i show my baby how much i love him..maybe i didn't get love from my mama but my babies are gonna get tge love tgat i always wish i had recieved..and the only reason i had those great Christmas's was cuz i would watch those perfect families on movies do those things amd i woukd try my best to give nice memories to my little sister..but shes too big for all that now she says :)..shes glad we did all those things and that makes me happy..happy i gave her some happy memories to hang pn to