Gunna get real sappy here. Tonight I just fee life is hitting me. As I look down at my daughter an fiancé, I think back what my life use to be like. I use to cut to get rid of pain an feel something when I felt numb. I had slot of boyfriends an ect just to feel loved even if it wasn't really love. I use to lay in bed an wish I wasn't alive I got bullied teased felt like nothing mattered anymore. Til me an him got back together (we have been on an off my whole high school time) right after graduation I moved in with him. An my life started to feel better. I felt loved happy. We tried an tried for a baby an I felt hopeless cause I just couldn't get pregnant so after we moved we still trying an than found out I was pregnant. I was happy an joyed. After aliegha was born it was good than it got bad for awhile. An now as I look at her I wanna cry an hold her tight and keep her away from all the bad in life. But I know I can't do that. All I can do is be there for her no matter what. When I feel down I look at her an realize everything will be okay in the end, because there is that beautiful girl that looks up to me. An amazing daughter that holds my heart ❤️ I now come to realize I wouldn't want my life any different an I'm glad I ended up where I am today.