I honestly feel like I ruined my children's lives... my girls see their mother angry even when I don't try to show it, they see/hear me cry myself to sleep... I never expected to go through this much bullshit with someone who speaks bad about me on social media, but when I am fed up with the constant disrespect and speak the truth I'm a bitch, his family attacks me calling me petty and heartless. It's like everytime he is mad at me he tells me his family hates me, that I'm no good for him or I'm a evil bitch and that they never liked me and want to beat my ass... honestly I could count on one hand the realist people in his family who've kept it 100 with me and will come to me and tell me they have a problem with me, I'm too old to be fighting I'm not 14yrs old anymore my kids are my main focus.. just really hurts me to the core that I've gone through so much bullshit, but I've come to accept that him and I weren't meant to be.... no matter how much I love him I can't keep hurting myself and making myself unhappy... As much as I fucking hate him I wish the best of luck in his life and career I hope he fulfill his dream, and I know y'all wondering will we stay friends? No we will not, i can't be friends with any of my exes, even though he was my 1st love I can't be friends with him... I just hope my children don't hate me for me not talking to their father again...