Two years of TTC. Some time ago my hope turned into hatred towards the world then slowly towards myself for not being able to give my husband a child. I felt broken. I wanted to start the next chapter of my life so bad. It took me a while to open up to my husband and tell him how I felt. That’s when he told me …. that we don’t need a baby to be a family. We are already a family. I am the most amazing thing in this world. I am crazy for thinking anything else. Baby or no baby he has me. The greatest thing about having a child is that part of me will always be in this world....

In the end if I never have a child I still have a man that hugged me when I cried about the negatives, didn’t mind the sex, bought me clothes and believed in me when I stop believing in myself. I will always want to be a mother but sometimes I forget I’m already a wife. That’s pretty amazing too.