When you breakup with someone you hear how dumb and stupid you were for loving them, you feel dumb and stupid for…

When you breakup with someone you hear how dumb and stupid you were for loving them, you feel dumb and stupid for falling, you feel sick you had a child with this person, you feel terrible because you see all the things you wanted for you and your child when you see this person. You see the family you wanted to build, you see all the hurt you feel on the inside manifest on the outside, all of the "How could you's" come to your mind....anyways this picture was taken yesterday from me seeing the father of my child....a part of me still loves him but I know we could never be because his mom has such a hold over him...his mom plastered my personal business on social media, harassed me, and my dad and my nana, and he upholds it because she's his mom. Everything I ever told her with trust she plastered it online because I left her house and she depended on me to pay her $210 in rent...I signed no lease to her or anything. That's a snake move and I don't want my son to ever tell her anything and she gets mad and does some childish shit to him. Excuse me for this long ass post but all this hurts...looking at this picture hurts because that's the man I fell for and now I can't have the family I want because of him and his mom.....it just hurts