so hopefully i make it to 36 weeks and if i do tgen i want to birth...i dont just want all these…

so hopefully i make it to 36 weeks and if i do tgen i want to birth...i dont just want all these people making decisions about me..i want to be involved in my own birth...i want to be able to walk move squat and labor...no petocin because then you have to get the epidural which i dont want..and what if i need more petocin. .which could bring the babys heart rate up to high or too low and have to get cut open..and then they look like my night in shining armor cuz they saved my baby but they cajse it in the first place with the unnecessary drugs...like nooo i want to feel the whole painful process. .its only natural..