ADVICE?!! PLEASE" TRY NOT TO MEAN COZ MY MIND IS MESS UP ALREADY!.

ADVICE?!! PLEASE" TRY NOT TO MEAN COZ MY MIND IS MESS UP ALREADY!.

Since the first trimester, my SO and has been arguing constantly where end up crying.

Well when I was 6months I got fed up and stay at my parents for a week, I cave after 24+ hrs not hearing from and text him first.

Well this time I'm due in 5weeks and I left again! He seem to not care, I spend 3nights waiting for a call/text just for a sign he cares. I got to the point I start breaking down coz I love him. Well I try to talk to him and he turn everything about him, ignoring my feelings and blaming mr. I hang up and went into a huge panic attack! My mom got worried and called a dr. they gave me subjections. I called him and told him emotional destroyed and he didn't care coz he assume i was blaming him. I officially decide I'm moving back with my parents until I'm emotionally better.

When I was with him, hell call me the "N" word knowing I hate it but he thinks it funny while he's hurting my feelings. He refer people by the color as a joke like "she likes chicken coz she black. I hate that. He points out my flaws, like that my underarm hairs grow back so fast. I been feeling hurt, insecure & i feel like he's insulting me when he calls me the "N" word knowing I hate it. Last night all wanted was help! to get everything off my mind!