I want to be a mother.

Not just I want to be pregnant.

Not just I want a baby.

I want to raise my child. I want to spend every single moment with them. I want to enjoy every tiny noise they make, every thing they do. Every smile, every fuss, every poop. I want all of it. I want to be the one they run to when they are in in pain, or scared, or even when they are happy. I want to tell them every day that I love them and I’m so proud of them. I want them to trust me and tell me whatever they are thinking . I want to see how their mind works, and challenge them. I want to encourage their interests, and allow them to be free to do what they love.

8 want to be who they wake up to, and who helps them go to sleep. I want to soothe each owie and help them work through negative feelings. I want to raise a successful child who will grow into a successful adult.

I don’t want to be who my mom was to me. I want to be a mother. And I want to start today.