I want to be a mother. He can sit here all day and tell me logical reasons why we shouldn’t TTC yet,…

I want to be a mother. He can sit here all day and tell me logical reasons why we shouldn’t TTC yet, and I won’t care. I feel incomplete. I feel like I’m spending every second of every day waiting and each night I go to bed I can’t sleep because I feel like something is missing, I forgot something. I don’t want to have sex because each time he says “I’m going to grab a condom” I feel actual real pain in my stomach and when he comes back I’m no longer in the mood and he doesn’t put it on. I’ve never wanted something so badly and been told I couldn’t have it and I feel like a child throwing a tantrum but if I want something so badly why can’t I have it? Why can’t I have it when there are 16 year old girls on this website living with their parents who get to have it?!