I go back to work today and I'm freaking out about leaving my little baby. I know he's technically almost 4 months old but I only had 1 month with him because he only got out of the nicu September 16th & we could only afford 4 weeks for me off :(. He's an older preemie now and almost 10 pounds but I'm still nervous. My mom is going to watch him till my husband gets out of class 5 hours after I leave for work. I just wanna stay home with him :(. On another note.. Going back to work in the lab is really pushing me to study harder for the Hesi exam. I don't want to be a phlebotomist/lab assistant forever. Plus after all the preterm labor mess and long nicu stay, I want to be an L&D nurse. I got really close to those ladies for the week of preterm. Just anxious cause my precious college experience was horrible :/. I need to do amazing on the hesi so that they don't totally judge me by my gpa :(.