I don't know why, but the fact that Tinley doesn't have a father is hitting me really hard tonight. Yes I know that one…

I don't know why, but the fact that Tinley doesn't have a father is hitting me really hard tonight.

Yes I know that one day in time someone will come along and see her as being their own daughter, but that's not the same. I never had anyone to actually go through all of this with me. Yeah I have my parents, but being a first time mom I wanted to have Joe by my side to experience everything with me since it would be his first child also. He chose another girl over his own child. I've basically been through everything alone. Even when I was in the hospital, my mom and friend Jessica was there, but neither tried to help talk me through anything or even try to help in any way at all, so even then I was pretty much alone. I wouldn't trade Tinley for the world, but nights like tonight when she does nothing but scream and cry really get to me. I have tried everything and nothing has worked. My mom won't help me. It's just so hard and stressful being a young single mom. I literally never go out or get time to myself. Don't get me wrong I absolutely love having Tinley with me all times, but sometimes it'd be nice to be able to just get away for a couple hours, but even if I got the chance to, I literally have no friends what so ever. Every time someone says they want to hangout with me, they always bail at the last minute.

I just want to move away and start fresh with Tinley somewhere! 😭😭