I keep feeling so happy then I'll feel sad and could cry because I feel overwhelmed like I should know how to soothe my baby but it's really hard sometimes and I'm exhausted and I miss my husband.. it doesn't feel like there's much time for us right now and I know my son is only 5 days old so I have to remember it will get easier but right now it is really hard. Especially when it's 3am and he wakes up right when I set him down and I haven't had time to just lay with husband at all. It would be so nice to cuddle with him or have sex and feel close but even if I wasn't 5 days pp I feel like we wouldn't even have the time. Then I feel like a bad mom because I think about how much easier everything was before the baby even though I love him so much.