I've been thinking hard and long these past few days on having a home birth. My OB says he won't…

I've been thinking hard and long these past few days on having a home birth. My OB says he won't recommend it cause of my situation. I was always set on a hospital birth but seeing all these beautiful photos makes me want to experience a home birth. I go for more testing tomorrow to make sure again if I do or don't have pre eclampsia. My doctor has told me my body is basically rejecting my baby. But the devil is a lair !! So sad cause I feel like I have no control in my pregnancy no more due to all these problems that have popped up outta no where 😢