Thank you I apreciate it

@mommyofangles, Thats a tough spot to be in. Well whatever you do I am here for you in cqse you need to vent. No judgements. :)

I can't afford to take more time off I took 5 days off but I'm working 7 days this week to play catch up... So I'm kicking my self in the ass I just am hoping that more of normality will kind of help me get through. But my work doesn't give much time with this not a full term I got one excused and the rest count against me

I would request more time off. This a very sensative and serious time for you. I would need a few moments too. I cant say that I know how you feel. But I can only imagine how hard this is. I hope you feel better honey and that when your ready you catch your rainbow. *hugs*