Starting TWW. Anyone else?

I had a stillborn daughter at 38 weeks this passed Nov. This is my second month ttc. (Last month we only tried for like two weeks though). My last and only pregnancy, I got pregnant the first month of ttc so I hope it's quick this time again.

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

My doctor said he would induce my labor at 38 weeks, if my baby girl still had growth issues and if the percentile dropped to 10 or less. Last thursday, it was 10 percentile, and he said if she didn't come on her own by 38 weeks, he would induce labor at that time. I'm 36 weeks 1 day today, he said my cervix was super thin, and 1cm dilated. Is there a possibility this can change... that my doctor will let her just come on her own? I don't want to be induced, i would much rather her come on her ...

Well it's 4am again...husband is at another bar. Told him at 1 I want to go to the hospital because of the cramps I'm having. He keeps turning his phone on to text on whatsapp but then turns it off. He won't answer my calls or texts. I'm sitting at home crying in pain. This is the 3rd time in less than 2 months and the last time was less than a week ago. I need to move back to Ohio. It's final.

Remember that awkward test I got out of last week ... Well there doing it today :( and I didn't realize I needed a pedicure till they have my legs up in these stirrups lol