my first son was formula fed because he was in the nice for about 24 hrs so he was bottle fed and since I have large…

my first son was formula fed because he was in the nice for about 24 hrs so he was bottle fed and since I have large areola he was not latching although he did get bm in the bottle. his colic and straining was horrible even resulted in a minor hernia until I switched to nutramigen at 5 months. after that he was a normal happy baby. this time around I tried to only bf but my din got jaundice so he to was in the nursery for about 2 days where he got firmula. he would latch only for a few minutes and then pull away later to know it was because of my large areolas. I ended up supplementing only a couple times but he started getting the same symptoms as his brother. I didn't drink soda, or dairy and limited gassy foods but he was still excessively crying and straining. his bowel movementSD were still nearly black at weeks, I just couldn't see him staining any longer so I am not only bottle feeding nutramigen and within 2 feedings her stool changed. he was happy, and his stomach wasn't rock hard. I feel guilty he only breastfed for one month but I honestly feel I'm doing the best for him. there is a superstition that my mood affects my breast milk and because I am under a lot of stress and getting upset it might have caused a negative reaction while breast feed h.