Starting TWW. Anyone else?

I had a stillborn daughter at 38 weeks this passed Nov. This is my second month ttc. (Last month we only tried for like two weeks though). My last and only pregnancy, I got pregnant the first month of ttc so I hope it's quick this time again.

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

I feel like all you girls on here hate me 😔 so I'm gonna delete this app ✌️

Just laying here on the sofa watching tv... not done anything this morning so far & I swear it smells like someone has just sprayed polish or air freshener or something it’s so so strong and no one or nothing has been done I’m the only one home 🤦🏻‍♀️😂 but this smell i can smell from no where is giving me cleaning cravings like I’m gonna go bleach the bathrooms now 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️ wtf is this smell I don’t even have cleaning products that smell like this it’s like lavender and polish 😂😂😂.... omg I’m baffled !!!!

So would it be considered desperate to put my baby registry on here? his family doesnt like me and wont even talk to me and my family really isnt even close at all. only ppl i have is my mom and little sis who is 13 and i dont want all the stress on my mom but my husband and i literally have 3 outfits 2 blankets and thats all... idk what else to do and i feel like a complete failure because i feel ill have nothing for my baby cause i cant even afford a carseat or diapers or anything he needs.....