I have had a few really rough days with my lo, and I can't help but think I was not actually supposed to have kids. I can't handle her screaming all the time...I try everything and nothing calms her down. it has been almost a year since I quit smoking but between her screaming and my high stress job I'm about to start again! I don't know why God would give me this miracle when I quite obviously can't handle it emotionally. 😭😭😭 She deserves so much better than me.