swear I think in cursed when shit goes right for me something always has to come up from behind and knock me clean on my ass like wtf did I do in life so fucked up to get dealt this shit I try to be a good mom, a good fiancée a good friend a good sister just a good person period I don't fuck with people I stay to myself in just trying to make it through life and raise my kids this is seriously making me just wanna give up on life I don't know how long I can keep getting up after being knocked down seems like my whole life is just me getting knocked down and trying to get back up and be ok this is the shit that got me scared for my baby girl cause I had Great pregnancies and deliveries my boys are healthy it my luck that because I wanted her so bad something will happen and i will lose her uughhh I just want to cry