I never understood postpartum depression before I had the baby. I always thought...you just had a baby why so sad?? But now?? This shit is real.

I had my baby girl on Monday the 15th, took her home Tuesday night. My mom left Wednesday (she lives out of state) and won't be back until maybe Christmas. She was here for a few weeks and my baby was overdue, so she was only here for the first 2 days of her being born.

Anyway. I'm so stressed about breastfeeding. I have this feeling she's not eating enough from me. Only one bowel movement a day. She doesn't spit up. She's constantly hungry and I feel I'm not feeding her but I want to breastfeed her so bad.

All I've been doing today is cry. Breastfeed, cry, pump, cry. I feel so lonely and I don't know why. Seriously hope this feeling ends soon.
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