So mixed up right now.

I understand why my man didn't tell me the truth cuz he was afraid of my reaction but at the same time then why did he ask me to remind him go do it every day.

It's one thing to lie to my face because you thought I'd be mad and shit but to go the extra mile and ask me to remind you everyday is bs. Idk how to feel.

If you can lie to me so easily for weeks and only tell me cuz we're fighting. How am I suppose to believe your not hiding or lying about anything else.

Plus u wanna tell me it's always my way or no way yet I try to compromise.

Like when you said you didn't want anyone in the room when our daughter way born but I explained that with my son and they put the Catheter in I had flash backs of my rapes and I wanted some I knew there so I could have more familiar faces. Then you tell my mom she can be there now your saying she triggers bad things for you. Then why not say that to begin with. You say cuz u wanted to make me happy. So I explain that okay well then can we find someone to be there until I can push. Then when it's time to push we'll have them leave so it's only me and you. Which I think is a compromise and he's like who you don't trust anyone but your mom or gramma and your gramma lives In a different state and if your moms there I won't be. Like ouch really. I'm trying to come to a happy middle ground. But your right. Apparently I always have to have my way and I should just shut up stop complaining all the time and do as I'm told. Yet I should stop letting people walk all over me. Fucking make up your mind. If you love me. Meet me in happy ground and deal with my complaining (which is me saying hay I'm stressed out. Or crying on his shoulder cuz my sons father won't see his son and I'm afraid of what my son will feel when he's older). If you can't handle that shit and treat me right then you don't love me. There's the fucking door. I don't know if I can trust him anymore. I just don't know