RANT

He Never asks how im doing, or how the baby is doing. Only time he asks if im ok is when he sees me doing faces that im in pain, or when im standing hunched over the bed., and even then when i tell him something hurts he just says "oh" and doesn't offer to do anything. I have to ask to get a massage, when i do ask, no wait, beg for a massage he makes it obvious he doesnt want to but does anyways and its literally a two minute thing. Like im not asking to go deep up in the massage, like he can just run his hand up and down my back and that'll make a world of a difference for me. But thats too much to fucken ask for. And yet he gets mad cuz i dont scratch his back when he wants me to. Thats fucken bullshit.

on Tuesdays i complete another week, and the last time i told him that shes the size of a pineapple, and other fun facts all he said was "oh" and changed the subject. That really hurt my feelings i even teard a little, but did he notice?? No he did not. And we were in a parked car so i dont know how it was not noticeable. The most attention my babys gotten was when we went to his friends house to pick up some stuff anf she asked how far along i was and want not thats when his "Daddy of the year" came out talking about the baby and shit. It was good acting too, almost fooled me. Shit pissed me off. I dont even like his friends for him to even be filling them in with that....

Dont get me wrong, im greatfull were living together and what not but i still feel like i need and deserve more of an emotional connection with him and the baby, atleast.