It's really sad but honestly I fined to so hard to become attached to the baby I wanted and waited so patiently for. This baby is all I've wanted for over a year and a half and I was so happy to fined out finally we were ready to start trying and pregnant the day after stopping my pills. Yet I've had spotting three different times now over the past five weeks very little but still enough to notice. I never spotted once with my older son and am scared to death something just is not rite, despite my Dr. and family's reassurance that it is normal. I have no morning sickness, my nose is not smelling anything more than before, not even really hormonal. The only reason I believe I am pregnant besides the test and ultra is my boobs are heavier and gone up already in side and those sharp pains in my lower rite side when I sneeze, cough, or move to quickly. I really want to build this bond to my child but am so in fear of the blood and no symptoms being signs that I will miscarry my child that my mined just won't allow me to be happy.