wide awake and waiting for my husband to get here but I think he stood us up yet again.... and I'm alone at night and during the day and I don't really eat and I don't sleep cause I'm always up for him if he shows up..... I've lost lot alot of weight and it's noticeable now and I don't sleep in my bed anymore and I'm alone I'm bout to have a nervous breakdown soon if things don't change.
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
Trigger. Lost baby
Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?
Omg I need to vent something weird just happened.... I'm scared because I thought it would never happen. I was in a deep sleep dreaming about ice cream and then all of a sudden I'm feeling wet spots on my neck thinking my fiancé's cat was in the room so I brushed it off. What scared me was then I felt something between my legs not bothered by it. Then all of a sudden I wake up to a twinge in my vagina only to see my fiancé is fucking me in my sleep I wake and was like scared. So I don't say noth...
I don't care what ppl think of me, but I'm seriously considering putting my baby up for adoption. I love her with all of heart, but doing this alone is hard. Every single night she just screams to the top of her lungs and I do everything to soothe her. I don't know what to do at all. I wish I had some kind of help. I don't have a single ounce of help. I don't know a single soul in Minnesota either.
I feel like the worst mom ever
So it's is 230 and I wake up to my son screaming. We co sleep and I KNOW he was in between my husband and I. He was in the middle of the bed when I went to sleep. I KNOW that I fed him off my left side. I don't sleep walk. I didn't get up. My husband didn't get up. Yet somehow my son fell off the bed onto the floor. ? it's maybe two feet high and carpet but I feel so bad. He isn't old enough to crawl over me or crawl at all. He barely can roll from his back to be...
I'm starting to run out of reasons to stay...