wide awake and waiting for my husband to get here but I think he stood us up yet again.... and I'm…

wide awake and waiting for my husband to get here but I think he stood us up yet again.... and I'm alone at night and during the day and I don't really eat and I don't sleep cause I'm always up for him if he shows up..... I've lost lot alot of weight and it's noticeable now and I don't sleep in my bed anymore and I'm alone I'm bout to have a nervous breakdown soon if things don't change.