Would it be selfish to wanna be dilated at least a little when I go to the doctor the 11th? Lol…

Would it be selfish to wanna be dilated at least a little when I go to the doctor the 11th? Lol she's due the 19th. I'm just ready to hold my babygirl and being able to stop worrying about her not kicking enough or something going wrong!! 🙈😢