Sometimes, your very best will never be good enough for some people. No matter how many positive changes you make, no matter how hard you try, no matter what you do, you will never be good enough. I don't want to not be good enough. But that's the situation. It sucks and it hurts so badly. But there it is. I need to find a way to accept and embrace what is my new reality. I love him. So much. This is all too much.