No one to talk to so I'm writing my feelings here instead. These past 3 days have been hell; have…

No one to talk to so I'm writing my feelings here instead. These past 3 days have been hell; have never been drunk so many times in a few days. I have to have a drink throughout the day but more especially at night to take my mind off the image of me carrying my little girl's coffin into the chapel and to prevent crying myself to sleep. I tend to think about her at night because that was when she was more active inside me. I kept calling her name time and again, but when I realised I won't see her anymore, it made me so depressed and helpless... 😭😭😭